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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
Private Member |
Zuzka I’m so glad to hear your side of the story, but I never believed anything Freddy wrote anyway. I love the changes that you have made on the new site. I agree that I can’t even open bodyrock.tv without hiding my computer because people might think its adult entertainment. I continue to look to you for fitness and diet help. I hope that you can get your divorce soon so that you can get away from his darkness.
Private Member |
Whew! I read Freddy’s negative post on FB early today then now is yours, Z in response to his. He is SO childish and unprofessional. I don’t understand why he always tried to sabotage you. Why he don’t want to sign your divorce paper? Why??? He is GREEDY!!! During BodyRock Days, me and my husband always talking about your video that we said it’s Freddy’s doing that and we doubted that it was you. You were too busy and gasping doing those intense workout. You cannot control the man who’s holding camera to film it. You were totally changed I mean the angle of the pictures/videos when you started doing those ZWOWs are very professional. Like I said, me as one of your many bodyrockers now turned to warriorZ, I am on your side, no matter what. Freddy is a loser, excuse me to say that but that’s how he looks like. Maybe you should be the one to have a lawyer against him that until now, he is harassing you. God bless you, Zuzana… I wish you all the best in life. Don’t mind your ex. Maybe his business is dying that’s why he is trying to sabotage you. You are a warrior, girl. Cheer up. We got your back. 🙂
Private Member |
Zuzka,
I started out with bodyrock about a year and half ago. I always wondered what had happened to you since not much was said. Then, when I found zwow, I was doing both bodyrock and zwow throughout the week. Within the last 3 months I have completely dedicated my fitness to you. I couldn’t handle their sexuality and their inconsistency in posting new workouts. I was always thinking about how much money I had spent on their equipment and still I was doing all the work trying to find an old workout to make up for their slacking. I am so unbelievably thankful for you in every way. You have literally taught me so many things as far as fitness and clean eating goes. It is my true passion! You are my number on inspiration in so many ways! Thank you for being you and so down to earth. 🙂
<3
Private Member |
Way to stand up for yourself and not letting him dictate how the situation was going to go!!! You have helped me become a better person so now it is my time to help you in return!!! This is exactly what happens when you make it and become successful!!! It happens to everyone almost!!! So dont feel bad and keep on doing you and being yourself!!! I know someone like that too, he is just misguided thats alll!!! Keep your distance and keep your head up! You are an awesome person no matter what anybody says!!!
Private Member |
I used to follow BodyRock in the beginning, too. That’s how I discovered you. But yes, suddenly you were nowhere to be found and I couldn’t understand why. Now I do. Luckily, you resurfaced a while later doing your own thing and here I am, healthier than I’ve been in the last ten years thanks to you. Z, we love you, your dedication to us and to our health. You will make it through this unfortunate chapter and guess what, we’ll be behind YOU all the way. Keep your head up and you fight that “man” all the way. And don’t worry, he’ll never get the best of you because you, and only you, own that. Keep your head up, girl!
Private Member |
Zuzka, I’ve always been a huge fan of YOU. Your voice, your warmth, your authenticity. I’ve been teaching group fitness for 22 years and you are the real deal. I stayed with you when you left BodyRock.tv, and I’m still here. Love and strength to you!
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I had the honor of meeting you in 2011 @ CBLA. When i met you, you were a very sweet woman that held so much light as a person, but i also noticed you held your negativity in your life and im glad you decided to share that with the ZWOW community. I followed you on Bodyrock because when i met you, you inspired me like, “wow i want those abs,” and i still want them! XD w/o God & you guiding me through my fitness…I would not be successful. I continued to follow you (once you appeared again with zwow) and continued with bodyrock, however, i gave up on bodyrock because of so much equipment you needed. I began to feel like even though they gave their time to help the BR community they sort of left a lot of us out bc we could not afford these equipment, so i felt like money was involved on their part. BUT WITH ZWOW! is like i dont care that i pay 8$ a month bc i get so much out of them. your equipment are simple weights or body weight. You keep it real zum zum. you really care about the community you started and i hope you continue to support us and we will support you as well. As long as you are doing something good in this world do not worry about the harm others cause you bc your good acts are not between you and them, but you and God or at least the people your helping. You have had your sufferings in life (whatever they may be) and for that you are a strong woman now who inspire weak people like me to accomplish what may seem impossible. God bless you ! keep shinning.
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Oh, BTW, I shared Freddy’s FB post to my husband and you know what my husband said? He said looks like Freddy’s portrayed ‘unnoticedly’ that you (Zuzana) can beat his a$$. Hahahaha LOL
Private Member |
Dear Zuzka,
am so glad that you got away from this man and regained your freedom!You made Bodyrock what it was, you were the heart and soul of it. I stopped watching it and felt really sad and disappointed of not seeing you in it any more. Am so happy to have found you again in Zuzkalight.
You have been through hell, but now you got control over your life and over your choices and you are creating your dream.Zuzkalight is the real you, the inspiring, loving and strong you!
You will not believe this, but I am not even able to do your workouts, yet your sunny personality gives me the strength to try even small parts of it and give me hope! Am saying this to make you understand that it is not just the excellent work you do as a professional trainer, but it is YOUR personality that attracts people to watch your videos and this is something your ex will never be able to do obviously…
It is not your boobs people are eager to see, but your encouraging smile, your low key attitude, your gentleness that inspires them and gives them hope that they will be able to become healthy, strong and beautiful. That is YOUR strength!
Let those who have hurt you eat your dust girl!
Keep up the good work, keep being you, and you will be fine!
Private Member |
Wow! Seriously so sorry to hear all of this. I never had the chance to follow you on bodyrock but found you later. You are more real of a host and I like that. Since I follow bodyrock and u, I would notice comments like A totally free workout, which I assumed to be a slam. I did not read their blogs. I’m disappointed in anyone who would take personal issues out in their public site like bodyrock has. I see why you finally had to explain your side. Do not sell yourself. I hope you are still getting your 49%! I agree with you, I want to work out without seeing close ups of breasts or more. I think the envelope is pushed a little much. We just want to work out, clean. And, why does he care if you are continuing your work outs? He is…so y can’t you?
Wish you luck and keep your fans posted. Lets hope the cards fall in your favor.