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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
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All makes sense, I used to recommend BR.tv to many female friends, who all thought that the skimpy shots where all made to attract male followers, who couldn’t care about the fitness component. I would say, ignore that (surely that is the marketing people pushing ‘sex’ to sell the content), just focus on her workouts, thats how she got that body in the first place.
Just unlicked BR.tv, will divert all traffic to ZWOWZ 🙂
PS – come to Dubai one day !
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You have gone through a lot! I’m glad you didn’t sign that agreement….i hope you gain control of bodyrock somehow…..
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Hi,
Don’t give more importance to that, you know who you are, you and everyone on the world knows what are the kind of beautiful person you are and the strong person who you are!!!
Keep doing what makes you happy and show to the world who is Zuzka!!! the great Zuzka!!
thanks for sharing all with us.
With love from Colombia.
andres.
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HI Zuzanna, I have been following you for years, since the beginning of BR. I have always loved you and found you inspirational. I did find that as time went on the workouts became more raunchy. One thing I always remember my hubby saying was how he couldn’t understand how Freddy could post such intimate pics of his wife. After you left BR the images of the other girls esp LM seemed to become more graphic. This, plus the fact that for me you were Bodyrock made me stop looking at their workouts. How you both conducted yourselves after your split said a lot about the type of people you were. You just got on with it and didn’t post nasty things. HIs “replacement” of you and posting every detail of her life, surgery posts etc was nothing short of weird, while for the most part he remains hidden behind the camera. I know that anyone that has been following you for years has seen the story unfold. Its obvious that you are all about the fitness and workouts. Zuzanna he would have nothing without you, you were the star of Bodyrock and the reason it got so big. Along with your beauty and fitness you have such a lovely cute personality and this is what draws people to watch you, not just your sexuality. Men and women love you. Keep the head up Z. I’m so glad you are truly happy now. Love you lots xxxxxx Nic
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Zuzka, u wrote this letter with class and believe me that we are all by your side. Keep fighting!
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Atta Girl!!!! Im proud that u took a stand but am also saddened that it came to this. I wish nothing but the very best and you have my overwhelming support. Keep doing what youve been doing bc your workouts, style and approach are top notch. Stay strong, us warriors got your back,always.<3
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Zuz, I had completely stopped watching and following bodyrock and I find that Lisa is just way too sexual in an ugly way. You were the reason why I decided to have fitness again in my life.
Karma will find its way. Bodyrock Freddy and Lisa and the whole gang are just bitter and mean (I don’t even want to complete this sentence with the word “humans”). Remember to keep your head held high up and this phase will soon disappear from your life and visualize good things and stop entertaining him and his horrendous behavior. You are more than good things!
Let the small minded people continue doing what they are doing. They are only crave for attention which was why he want high numbers to the website in the past and he has satisfaction of bringing strong minded people down. Cos he is insecure bas-tard.
I wish you all the best in your future endeavors and you will have utmost support from all of us in Singapore!!!
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Zuzana!!!! Thank you for this letter, Iwas so angry when I have since what he wrote but I know it was not the true, he is afraid!!!!! he don t know how to do because his business and his monster don ‘ t get as well as he wishes I think….. Zuzana, stay strong, you are the best and no matter what haters say, you Are you! You are the best, You are a Warrior, do your own think, don ‘t care about this poooooor man, and I m sure that all your followers know who believe. I believe in you! Love you, love what you do, You re such an inpiration for me and million other people in many ways!!!! Stay strong and I fuck Freddy!!!! Sorry, but i had to tell this,
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Free yourself from mental illness, Not but ourselves can free our minds…
Soon you realize that most of the women that follows you has passed your same history from the one we once call our love, our friend, our parter!
Healthy mind is what you offer us!
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JUST KEEP GOING!!!