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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
Private Member |
I am so sorry that your going through this Zuzka. He definitely sounds controlling. He needs to just let go and move on with his life. You were the reason why I got so so interested in your high intensity workouts. You are such a natural in front of the camera. Your beautiful inside and out. I didn’t know he was bullying you and it’s not fair. Without you, bodyrocktv wouldn’t have been successful. I have always been on your side. You have heart and you have an aura about you that light ups a room. You inspire me. Be strong sweetie. He can’t break you, God is always on your side. Light and love Zuzka.
Private Member |
Hi, Zuzka!
Furst I want to send you an enormous hug and lots of l positive energy!
I’ve been following you since 2010 when I found BodyRock.Tv . I really enjoyed your workouts, the coffee talks, the nutrition tips and everything you did. You were, and still are my fitness idol.
In 2011 when you disappeared from BodyRock.Tv I knew something was wrong. I didn’t like the new host. She just didn’t feel right to me. I eventually stopped watching BodyRock.Tv. It was’t the same without you. I missed your workouts but most of all I missed your presence. You have an amazing aura. You are yourself and nobody can replace you. You are a constant inspiration to me (and not many people are). So I followed your facebook page and waited patiently for your return. I was so happy for you when you started the ZWOWs. I must say you are doing marvelous job. I will always support and cheer on you. You are an amazing person, but you know that, there’s no need for me to say it. I just want you to know how much I appreciate you and the things you do.
I also want to congratulate you (and your team) on all of your DVD series, the ZGym, and everything you have achieved. To be honest, I was sad when I learned the ZWOWs are no longer free, because I can’t afford to pay for them, but I think it is fair and you deserve every cent. Moreover you already gave us 70 free ZWOWs and I’m extremely grateful for them.
Thank you for being who you are and doing what you do!
Be strong and know that you have all the love and support of your worriorZ.
Love,
Vera
Private Member |
I think everyone here was suspect that things went wrong these time. I felt watching this lasts videos with You on BR.tv that it was sooo hard to you, Zuzka. Now, I know that you’re SO strong and I’m full of admiration for You. You’re just the best. I also feel Freddy may doing this stupid things caused of some kind of desperation now. I don’t want to stick my nose into someones affairs but I haven’t got his moves. Horrible and idiotic.
I’m sending you lot of love!
Private Member |
Dear Zuzana,
I thank you so much for that post.
I was following Bodyrock.tv from the very beginning and felt so much connenction to the things you were doing there. You made me think, that I can change my life style and become whatever I want to. When I was reading the post, that Freddy and you break up, I was so sad and also afraid, that everything will change now…
Even if you wrote in that post, that you won’t leave Bodyrock.tv, I was sure that something will happen.
When Lisa Marie was introduced to the website, that was the proof, that something was really wrong… you were completly disappeared. That was the moment when I canceled following Freddy and this dislikable girl! She is horrible!
I was so sure the whole time, that something like that what you were writing here happened. I was never reading about Bodyrock.ty again, but now I KNOW, that my feeling was right and that you were bullied for the whole time.
I just want you to know, that my thoughts were with you the whole time, and they will be in the future. You are a wonderful person and I’m so happy that you’re making your way! Keep on fighting! They won’t put you down!
I was never writing you one of your posts, but now I had to… Thanks for this emotional post. And
Wish you the best!
Private Member |
I know who is Zuzka and I love her! She is a Kind and she gets finally what she deserves, the best!
what about that guy.. not interested, at all
Private Member |
Best answer!:)
Private Member |
Always keep in mind, that you have the support of thousands of people, and it is you who made bodyrock. You’re a unique trainer and person.
Private Member |
Good for you Z, for finally standing up for yourself. But I just know that you didn’t post this before, because you didn’t want to talk bad about him, eventhough he did.
I don’t think a lot of people will buy his bullying crap. Especially the background of you and him, seeing the persons you both are and were.
There is all the more proof on the internet that he is not being genuine.
Look at the shoots with Lisa-Marie now, all you can see is tits, nipples and ass.
I’m eving feeling sorry for her, because I think she is very insecure, but not a bad person.
He is probably taking advantage of her as well, wanting her to look like a pornstar.
We all love you Z, and I can never accept to think you would beat the crap out of him (except for now 😉 )
Keep being genuine and real, cause we love that about you, and we all know who’s loting here.
Stay strong, just like you are. And Freddy should man the f*ck up about his broken ego.
Private Member |
Argh!!When tried to post, didn’t notice the internet was down… there goes my message xD
Hands down – YOU are the most sincere, open-hearted and honest person I’ve come along!!! Honestly, Zuzka, I LOVE you, and I love your work, YOU are the one changing my body, and my perspective over eating and working out, and I’m so grateful to YOU!! Please, never change… keep doing what you do! If someone is really going to succeed here… it’s you 😉
<3
Private Member |
Zuzka i thought bodyrock sucked right after you disappeared. It became more porny lacked your sweet personality. I was so relieved when you came back.im happy it worked out for you!
Private Member |
Generally,the eyes are the mirror of the soul.Your eyes are crystal, also your smile saws that you are one happy and very good person.
I’m really sorry about all of those that happened to you but what can you say… life is full of bad moments and disappointments… this taste of life is pretty valuable though because gives experiences for future use and most important creates strong personalities. As you can see from yourself now you are stronger, wiser and your inner beauty comes out and makes you more beautiful than ever. Keep calm and head up!