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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
Private Member |
Zuzana!
Don’t worry.
Sorry for my English – it’s very poor, but I hope you’ll understand me:)
Freddy is a one selfish person plus his new girlfriend manipulate with his mind. I hope your understand that all the fuss over the money. Not all the people so kind as you imagine. Moreover the most number of people are beasts. It sounds horrible, but it is not so terrible. They beasts in a good way – they compete with each other, try to get something from each other, but when they break the law or ethical norms – then it are the bad things. I want to say that Freddy haven’t changed, he always was that person, but you couldn’t see it before. So you shouldn’t suffer about “how could he to change so…”
But you should to be happy that it happened so early, if it happened later, may be your pain and problems would be more horrible.
And you should know that you most beautiful girl that I’ve ever seen in my life. As for me, there was only one really bodyrocker – that person is you with your smile, your voice your kindness and emotions. And I love you. There is not the other such amazing girl like you. And I like very much your new project
“zuzkalight.com”.
And I want that you understand only one thing: when a person behave in a way like your ex-husband, it shows that he a very bad man, he is a stinker and nothingness, especially in his behave towards a women.
So you shouldn’t worry. Just keep on your project and stand up for your rights, hire the lawyer and don’t give up.
And remember – I love you, and I think all your fans love you very much and we will always be on your side. And you know, thanks for deal you do.
Private Member |
This man is just a pig, I knew it from the beginning. I am glad you dump him, you deserve to be happy.
Private Member |
That’s right! Even little look in his eyes showed that his not completely open to the public. That’s why he always hid himself from us. He knew he needed us for his business and he didn’t want us to know. Well We knew. I am glad Zuz stays herself – JUST DO NOT STOP ZUZ – and just started life on her own. I am fighing similar pig, who is taken, let me fall in love with him and then I had found out he’s taken but that’s a bit different story. I may fall into Zuz’s videos just to find myself again when I kick this boy”friend” ass. Keep being inspiring and this strong. Current life needs it.
Private Member |
Lamento mucho que tuvieras que pasar por todo eso. No tenía ni idea. Pero no te preocupes. Que con lo que has conseguido y siéndote fiel a ti misma saldrás adelante. Mucha suerte.
Private Member |
From the moment i saw Bodyrock tv me and my husband agreed that you are the heart and soul of this page.dont let this persons negativity and envy destroy you . It is better to be envied then to be pittied,we say in hungarian.
We love you
Keep up the good work
Private Member |
And one more point: Lisa Marie just envy to you, and may be Freddy too. Have you noticed that Lisa Marie increased her boobs? )))))))))))))))))
To be honest, I didn’t like Lisa Marie at first sight, she seemed to me such nasty person!!! I wrote some comments that bodyrock return you in them videos but…
So I’m glad that you in a good health and have your own project. Remember – you are best of the best!!!!))))
Love you.
Private Member |
Well, I think when it comes to Lisa Marie – there is every comment just a waste of time. She just tries to copy our sweet Zuzka and to be right. She can undergo hundreds of plastic “decorations” and she’ll never be even 1/8 of our Zuz. She’s got NO REAL SPIRIT. She’s just a Freddy’s weapon with no real opinion. Present a HEALTHY LIFESTYLE with a bunch of plastic surgeries. Come on. Where the brain went?… Boob job when excercising – NO PROBLEM. I may undergo one to and I am not sad about my breasts. They just get too sporty when exercising too much. As you say….she’s best of the best. No competion. Zuz’s soul is clean.
Private Member |
Dear Zuzka,
I didn’t even have to read all this to know what you went through! It was definitely apparent (all of what you said). I feel for you! I had a similar situation physically with my ex and it was horrible! I’m so sorry you had to go through all that. You are amazing, I am dedicated to my lovely Zuzka! You inspire me! You are the best, we all love you and know that you are the personal trainer with the most experience and you are a great teacher with the best form and lessons. I am thinking positive thoughts for you during this difficult time. Best, Dani Tubman (in Eugene, Oregon)
Private Member |
Lots of Love from the netherlands. I wish you all strenght, courage and wisdom. You are beautiful and worthy to be treated with respect and dignity.
Keep strong and let your light shine.
Private Member |
No debes permitir que te vuelva a suceder algo así. Si necesitas amigos, aquí tienes uno. Saludos desde barcelona, España.
Private Member |
Keep going Zuzana!
I admire you for your workouts and physical and mental strength. Keep honing and perfecting your videos and your site and stay positive! I’m in NYC now and could go to any of the fancy gyms here but prefer your workouts. If you taught the class though I would go. I have a joke with my husband…when I want to eat junk or not work out, I look at him and ask: ‘What would Zuzana do?’
You keep a lot of people positive.
Remember: everything always passes.
Don’t let someone give you wrinkles and grey hair and waste your day over deceit, underhandedness and their personality issues.
Private Member |
Dear Zuzka
I have followed you from the very beginning and have always felt your genuine and honest nature come through on your videos. I am a huge supporter of you and everything you do, and I must say I was thrilled when you left Freddy and started doing the ZWOWs. While you never said what was occurring before, I believe all your true fans could see the direction Bodyrock was heading and understood by your split and subsequently starting the fantastic ZWOWs, that Freddy was controlling and a toxic influence. One only has to look at the awful and false transformation of Lisa Marie’s appearance to see this evidenced. I no longer bother with Bodyrock, it’s too sexualized, superficial and it’s just not the same without you. I applaud you on your silence until now and further praise you for the honest and genuine open letter to your fans. Wash your hands of Freddy and get that toxic man out of your life. Bodyrock is nothing without you (which I’m sure Freddy knows which is why he has 51% of it, it says it all really).
We love you Zuzana, we love you for being you. Sending you all the love and support you could ever wish for (all the way from New Zealand!)
Kate xoxo