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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
Private Member |
Zuzka! You are such an amazing strong woman! I started following BodyRock in 2010 and fell in love with you I would tell my (now X) husband that I felt like if we lived in the same town we would be friends! I could really see your spirit coming through your video’s. The Photography and shots on the youtube video’s was often alarming, My son at the time 14 would come into the living room and say “What are you watching?”!!!! thinking it was some sort of porn. It seemed so out of character for who I saw you to be on the video’s and blogs I read. After reading your story I now understand. I am so sorry for all you have been through! I too have a similar story with having a business with my x husband and having everything stripped away from me! Including him slandering my character. But as you well know, NO ONE can take away from us who we truly are! No One can kill our spirit!
I could tell after you left Body Rock and I watched sweet Lisa Marie be morphed into some sort of Barbie doll Porn Star Look alike that it was the Man behind the scene who has the issues! Hold on to your shares of Bodyrock! YOU are the one who made it successful! I was so so so glad to find you doing your own thing. I am now an avid fan and wariorz. Love you to bits! Keep up the amazing work! You inspire so many people! Your sweet spirit shines through that beautiful smile! and of course your amazing body transformed with all of your hard work. Keep it up and keep smiling! Freddy has Nothing over you! He can talk whatever smack he wants The Truth will come out and he will drown in his own poison! Just hope Lisa Marie or any woman won’t get sucked down with him
Stand tall sister! Hugs!!!!
Private Member |
Sorry to hear that! what he is doing is embarresing but your are a good and loving person, strong woman and funny. that is why i started follow you. I love your exercise and when you help others to get in shape and makes them feel better. Even my dauther is watching you. Dont let his crap get to you. I liked bodyrock but l like zuzka light even more. So keep movin’ and thank you!
Best wishes and a Big hugs kristina /sweden
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Thumbs up Zuzka , all your fans send you the right vibe and support , and your own warrior attitude gives you the power to overcome all of it !
Surround yourself with all that positiveness and doubt not , you will win this fight ! be safe and further on , lots of success with zwow !
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Zuzka,
I have been following you for a long time now and it hurts to see you so hurt like that. ..Im so proud of you! Im glad to see you on your feet again. I hope your business only continues to prosper. I really enjoy watching your videos and reading your posts 🙂 AND REMEMBER..you cant see a rainbow without a storm/rain 🙂
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Hi Zuzi, I am so happy you stand up for yourself!
I was there I know how hard it is… I understand you don’t want fight you just want to rest…
3 years ago when I was getting divorced I have lost friends because I choose to be nice and don’t talk about the hell I lived in…but where that real friends? No…
I was afraid of my life… Scared to close my eyes at night … He didn’t want to let me go but I choose for myself and I left. Nothing with me and no money….
I left him everything and started new life. It was not easy but I am happy I did it! I met love of my life… Partner for life!
I am with you!!! I think Freddy is acting pathetic !!! Fight for yourself girl!!!
Hugs and kisses
Private Member |
Zuzka, you are the only reason I, as well as many more would watch bodyrock.tv…as soon as you left I stopped tuning in. Over the past couple of years I have been dealing with my own personal problems and so I did not realise that you were getting this kind of shit off freddy! God bless you, you make many people happy and empowered-please keep doing what you are doing! And I personally agree with you, before I realised you had left, I was getting very put off with seeing Lisa’s fake boobs in my face etc. You are my all time fitness idol! Keep stong hun and fight throught it!!! Good luck babe! xxxx
Private Member |
Hi Zuzana,
I’m following you and your amazing workouts for some years now – starting with bodyrock.
I can say, you are the first made me enjoy my exercises!
After you disappeared from BR I was sad, it wasn’t the same without you. The new people couldn’t generate any enthusiasm in me for workouts as you did and it become more and more “fake” and dollish.
So I was very very VERY HAPPY I found your new blog. Thank you for your work! You are a great and very kind person. We all love you and wish you only true friends!
You are great!!!
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Just know that you are not alone, and you are not the only one who has had a man tell lies about you. I am so sorry it has been such a struggle!! I left bodyrock.tv shortly after I stopped seeing your videos… It just wasn’t the same without you, and no-one else could replace you. YOU inspire me! I am so glad you stood up for yourself and keep on standing up for yourself. I saw that offensive story Freddie wrote about you and didn’t believe it for a second. I’ve never met either of you personally, but I was instantly sure there was more to the story, and I lost respect for Freddie when I saw this behavior. I was so happy when I found you on youtube again!!! Keep it up, stay strong, and know that you have fans and supporters who are devoted to you!
Private Member |
Hi Suzi,
Listen….I am through similar situation at this moment, and I know how you feel.
I am originally from Uzbekistan, and came to the UK 7 years ago to study English. I got married here and obviously stayed. But there is no way it was my intention to use the guy in order to remain in the country. I loved the person. Unfortunately we were not happy together anymore. Our personal life was dead. Physically and emotionally… I know how people can judge someone like us. But we still have feelings and heart.
Regarding Freddy, he is most likely still in love with you. Hence he is being how he is now. He just cannot get over it. He thinks you heart his ego. Also, I am so disappointed with Lisa-Marie. I used to love bodyrock, but after she wrote on her Facebook page “No, Idon’t want to buy your dvd” was LOW!!! She got so many bolocking after that, and lot of people just stop following bodyrock after that.
We love you who you are, and your personality. You are an inspiration for us. Who cares about your past!!!xxxxxxxxxxxx
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I guess, you could watch your own videos sometimes:
https://www.zuzkalight.com/blog/positive-attitude/
🙂