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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
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Hi Zuzka,
I’m glad that you are sticking up for yourself. I like you like this a lot more. I have been a bodyrocker to, but are more proud to join this. Did’nt like Lisa from the start eventhough i have just gotten why everything changest.
I’m proud of what you are doing!
-Aninia, from Denmark
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Zuzana, i want to say THANK YOU for all you done, doing and will do! Cause of your blogs, video, i change my life and want sent all my love to you, be strong, and fell love from many many people who say THANK YOU for great work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish to see much more such people like you on this earth, be yourself. You make fill fire, charge us and inspire for strong actions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Zuzka, stay strong! I wish you all the best for your future!!!
Greetings from Germany
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Good job. As a business owner, I had a similar disappointment twice with different partners. Lesson learned. You will have great success by bringing the best in you to your website. I am looking forward to see more of your creativity in fitness. Sexy is great, but you are definitely different than many out there, and that is what is attractive, and what your “Ex” wants to exploit.
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So proud that you stood up for yourself! I have followed your workouts for more than 2 years. I can’t do most of them yet but I’m not giving up. I honestly knew something was wrong with Freddy! I don’ know how but I’m glad he is out of your life. Your dedication to fitness is amazing. I have gone from 25.8% body fat to 17%. My goal is 15% so I will keep up the workouts! God Bless You!
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Hi Zuzka
As being one who has followed your progress since first seeing you 2009 on youtube, and how it from a short time grow large, due to its easy choice of training exercises to do at home and yes not to forget your lovely confident personallity and sweet accent. It was well first a small challange keeping up with you, but later on was able to quickly catch up, and it gave good ideas to my own workouts and got me started up again after my accident.
Today I was on Youtube, to look for some graphic tutorials, and you know how it is something being on Youtube, you tend to wander off. Then I saw a clip for Bodyrock, and as I was searching for the lastest Bodyrock episode, in combination with wanting to see how your journey had been. To see if you had began training again, because I did not think of Bodyrock as the same with the others who was training, it did not have the same heart. And also as you mention something about in your text, it felt like that the concept more emphesized on ”prettyness” part, rather the training part. Dont get me wrong, I dont mind, but it was not that kind of inspiration I was looking for, and it also lacked something you brought into your episodes. Then I saw you had a new brand, tried it and okay, I still have to work on the side plank with my balance.
And in my curiosity of finding out about why the new brand had apeared. I stumble upon this text on your blog ”Divorce” It is really strong of you to open up like that. It gives an indept personal view of the person we only see glimses of in your training episodes. Maybe that it is also what makes you different from the rest. Because you bring a bit of you in it, you commit your self fully to it, and not just going by the motion like the rest.
Have to say it.. he sounded bit like a spineless possives and heartless cunt. Sorry to say that.. But one should be able to get a hug without it has to lead into something sexual, maybe I am a bit of a softy, but there should be room for a hug when one passes by or one just need a comforting hug.. its kind of refueling break from the trivia.. And the part with hiring a camera guy, it could free up some time to work on something else to due with the brand.
However as one who has enjoyed your journey I think it is freaking awesome with big letters, so I have to write it again, ”FREAKING AWESOME” that you got up again. And I hope that the new journey you are on, will lead you to something even more greater then before.
Best wishes from
Denmark
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well… is curious, I visited Checks last month… I understand your situation. You are wellcome to Mexico. 🙂
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Zuzana, honestly speaking, your ex husband is not a real Canadian. Canadians are much better than him. Trust me, because I’m Canadian person.
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Real Canadians are nice people
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Since my last boyfriend I have felt so lonely. You know that as I explained that thoroughly in my first email to you. I wished for my heart to be filled with love and happiness and you did that! I have met the perfect guy and I am to be promoted tomorrow at work! It seems that the gods are smiling at me and you are the reason why. I will be your faithful follower for ever. Ancientfathersandmothers@gmail.com
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I was very upset when you were no longer on body rock… I found your site when you were still shooting in that apartment with wood floors. When I came back after a few months of not being on the site and found you were gone. I have hated body rock since you left it. I tried to stick with the site but I do not like the new image and I really just don’t like anything about it. I also don’t really like the new face of body rock… I think you are absolutely stunning and amazing and Lisa looks unhealthy and seems like she has alot of body image issues. You always preached being proud of your body and your audience could feel your confidence and feel that you meant it. Body rock is a shell of its former self wihout you! Keep rockin zuze! Screw your asshole ex