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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
Private Member |
OMG! Bodyrock tv is Absolutely nothing without you.
that plastic “poupée gonflable” is so fake! arrkkk hahaha
I just bought aaaaalll your DVD’S. I’m so happy!!
I wish you the best. I think you are an amazing girl! an inspiration 🙂
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I meet you some years ago since Im a international photographer that have been worked in Praha, London, New York and Tokyo. Im mexican so I live in Mexico.
So far i didnt know about the hard time you are passing trough !!!
This is very sad !!! You don’t deserve this situation. This is unffair !!!
But after read some comments here, I feel very happy because you are clearly not alone.
A lot of people sincerelly care about you !!! Thats wonderful !!!
You should understand that all this people have an awesome image of what you really are.
Now Im not a fan anymore. Now Im a concern Man that have been happily discovered that behind your Body of Rock, there is a vibrating soul and a warm sensitive delicate heart.
Tonight Im not admire you as a fitness beauty. Tonight I respect you as a beautiful human being. And since Im a buddhist person, my thoughts and energy are with you.
I Wish you the best. Stay Strong.
And when sorrow appears, and you feel pain, and get weak; just focus on the powerful light of the brave girl in the mirror. There are not enough tears to block the stars in her eyes and the sun in her smile.
PS. If I can help you in a professional way. Stand by me.
Now you have my email adress and website.
Private Member |
It’s astonishing how people can become due to their own personal issues.. What he wrote about you was very immature. This will only make him temporarily happy, nevertheless deep down inside he is suffering and until he “grows up” he won’t be able to be truly happy.
On your part, I am very glad to see what kind of person you are, its these type of people who I enjoy following on the web. Your new website is awesome and you seem much more alive and yourself in these videos. You portray yourself as a real person and I am 100% positive that all of us following you love that about you ! 🙂
Keep stong xo
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Hello, Zuzana
Life sometimes is so tough. Just keep moving towards to your happiness. Those people and this kind of bullying don’t define you.
Work hard. Live well. Don’t forget yours roots.
Greetings from Brazil.
Private Member |
Hi,
Firstly , can I just say i think your the PERFECT woman…
I followed you on Bodyrock.Tv and yeah I noticed they said nothing would change you would still be there, then within like a week all your workouts had been replaced. There aren’t enough minutes in the week for them to have replaced all your workouts so fast with so many of LisaMarie’s, she could not have recorded so many in such a short time. It was obviously meticulously pre-planned and executed.
Needless to say I ended my time following Bodyrock.Tv, LisaMarie talks so damned fast its like shes on speed or something with zero personality…
I’m still following you and always will, keep your head up, keep strong.
Jack
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i knew he was a greaseball with you.you lost that sparkle in your eyes that you have once again.body rock who…..lol
Private Member |
i was searching for your videos on body rock because it was because of your workouts a few years back that began my transformation to health. First thing I noticed was that you were not in the video and wondered why that was so after the immediate disappointment of not seeing your positive vibe on screen. Within a few minutes I landed on this post and am in disbelief. Just know that you were the heart and soul of that website but now you are the heart and soul of this one and your fans will follow YOU wherever you go. You are the definition of ambition, power, and strength. You are a role model. I wish you all the best.
Private Member |
don’t worry zuzka,he looks like a drug addict in the videos. i’m glad you left him. and lisa- Marie doesnt compare to you in any way.
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Las cosas siempre pasan por una razón. Da gracias a todo lo que pasó porque ahora, tu vida, tu blog y tu trabajo es mucho mejor.
Si alguna vez vienes por Barcelona y quieres dar una vuelta en moto (se que te gustan), contacta con nosotras. Te lo pasarás bien 🙂
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Aloha Zuzka,
You are an amazing young woman, and I’m very sorry to hear what hardship you’ve gone through-yet, glad that you had overcome that issue. (Awesome job!). If you have an attorney take a look at what Fred has done to you (via phone txt, email, websites), all of those are documents that can possibly be fired back at Fred as those threats and public embarrassment has caused you your own hardship in life. You have physically and mentally taken a hard hit from someone you loved. If I was your attorney, I’d blow a gasket! Just remember-there are a lot of people that are proud of you as you have helped them become a better person.
Mahalo,
May