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An Open Letter To All My Fans - Finally I am Standing up for Myself
Blog | July 14, 2013
I didn’t think that I would have to deal with this, but it came to the point when I just have to stand up for myself. It came to my attention that my soon to be ex-husband wrote a post about our marriage in which he pictured me as an abusive monster that used him to get to Los Angeles only to dump him, dump BodyRock.Tv that we’ve build together and become a star. My stomach literally turned upside down when I read all of those horrible things he wrote about me that are absolutely not true. I keep being bullied by this man who took literally everything from me.
Here is my side of the story. Freddy and I have build BodyRock.Tv a fitness/personal blog that became very successful. We traveled, had fun, shot hundreds of workout videos that went viral on youtube. BodyRock.Tv was a very successful business that was making us a lot of money. It was insane. We had everything but home. I did not want to live in Canada and my husband did not want to live in Prague. We tried a little country in Mediterranean – Malta, but it still didn’t feel like home to either of us. In 2011 we were contacted by a large talent agency and production company from Los Angeles to discuss a possible business opportunity. It sounded great and we were both excited to move to L..A.
We moved to Los Angeles in May 2011 and rented an expensive house in West Hollywood for the entire year. While we did not close a deal with the production company and did not get representation from the talent agency, we both felt strong about BodyRock.Tv and wanted to keep growing. Our relationship on the other hand was not at all in good shape. It was not because I was a monster wife that would physically and emotionally abuse my husband. We had serious issues that caused disconnection on my part. I was not happy about the creative direction of our videos and the way I was being portrait and perceived. While I was happy about the numbers on youtube and growing business I was feeling more and more embarrassed about my sexualized image. Don’t get me wrong, I like sexy, and confident, but I don’t enjoy having camera close up my cleavage and elsewhere. That was also a reason why we did not get any sponsorships or representation by any large talent agency despite of the popularity online. I felt like our goals were different. I wanted a clean family friendly blog that people wouldn’t be embarrassed to share with their friends, and Freddy wanted to see bigger numbers. I felt like I was being controlled in every aspect of my life. I didn’t even have my own cellphone for the first few months in Los Angeles. Apparently it wasn’t needed. If anyone wanted to talk to me, they can call my husbands cell phone.
Another issue in our relationship was our intimacy. I was not as physical with my husband as he wanted me to be which led to frustrations on his part and disappointment and disconnection on mine. I couldn’t get a hug from him to be comforted, without him being sexual with me. I could no longer imagine to have family with this man. I knew that I would not be able to look into my children’s eyes and tell them that their dad is the love of my life.
I decided that the best thing for both of us would be to separate as a couple and remain best friends and business partners. While I can’t deny that Freddy was devastated by my decision, it was not true that he had to leave to his home town in Canada. I told him that our house was big enough for both of us. We had two separate bedrooms. I offered him that I would help him to get through the changes and that I would not be the first one to date other people if he decides to stay. I wanted him to be happy and I wanted us to keep growing BodyRock.Tv.
He decided to leave me in Los Angeles and went back to his home town in Canada with his family. I was fine with that and I have to say that I felt relieved and was excited for the new beginnings. Freddy and I were in touch every day and talked about BodyRock.Tv and how we are going to continue as business partners. We agreed on bringing in other girls as hosts of the workout videos. However my idea of hiring a camera guy to shoot my workout videos was denied by my husband. No one was allowed to shoot videos of me. That’s why you could see me doing only short intros to the workouts having my camera on tripod. I was also doing some nutrition and diet posts, but I felt very limited by not having anyone to help me. We were both feeling overwhelmed by the change, because we were used to working together and we were very good at working together.
Things got very tough when his new girlfriend Lisa Marie came to the picture. While I thought that him having a new girlfriend, a person that will be there for him, will make things a lot easier, I was wrong. Up until then, we were friends, partners and we were getting along. If you were following BodyRock.Tv back then you must have noticed that I have basically vanished right after her very first post. In December 2011, Freddy’s attitude towards me changed completely. He became incredibly mean, he denied me an access to BodyRock.Tv and all the social media we’ve build together. Since I had no access to our Canadian business account, and owned only 49% of the company, I was relying on him to pay me monthly dividends. My future was completely in his hands. When I asked for my dividends he told me to first sign a non-compete agreement. What that means is that I wouldn’t be allowed to ever have my own fitness blog or to ever do a workout video online. I felt like I was being controlled again and threatened on top of that. It was never my intension to leave BodyRock.Tv. I was forced to leave to keep my independence and dignity. He told me to lawyer up and the last email I got from him stated exactly this: “I want you to sell the company car that your mom is using. Aww, isn’t it horrible that your mom that has nothing won’t even have the car?” That my friends right there was the end of our friendship. I couldn’t believe it. Of course I did not sell the car and my mom still has it.
What happened next is that he wrote a post on BodyRock.Tv that would portray me as a bad person that betrayed him in every possible way. He wrote that he was being forced and manipulated to write the post about us breaking up. That was the post with the picture of us sitting on the front step of the house in West Hollywood. Just to let you know, nobody was forcing him to write what he did. While I was pushing for him to post the truth about us not being a couple, he wanted to write it in his own words and told me not to let anyone know that I left him. I was fine with that.
At that time, I decided that I will not give up and that I will continue doing what I love and he or nobody else will ever stop me. I contacted Darren from Watch it now entertainment, explained him the entire situation and asked him if he wants to be my partner. We clicked as friends immediately and we were on the same page when it comes to fitness, blogging and my image as a trainer. I got hired by his company and got my work visa instantly. After that, you know the story. We started shooting ZWOWs and I tried to get back on my feet. I can never thank Darren and his team at Watch It Now Entertainment enough, who all helped me when I had absolutely nothing. I am also forever thankful to my boyfriend who stood by me the entire time and gave me the kind of love and home that I have always dreamed off.
I filed for divorce in January 2012, however I am still waiting for the divorce to happen, because my husband is way too power hungry and wants my 49% of BodyRock.Tv which he thinks is worth his signature on our divorce papers and nothing more. I was also threatened by a letter from his lawyer that I might be deported back to Czech Republic if I won’t stop doing ZWOWS and sign the non-compete agreement with BodyRock.Tv. I guess he assumed that I didn’t get my visa.
I have received way more abuse from him in the form of online bullying. He said so many bad things about me on his Facebook and other social media and I have never stood up for myself. For some weird reason I thought that he is really not that kind of person and that maybe he’s just very hurt that I left him. I thought that he is being like that because he’s probably suffering. Now it got to the point that I am hundred percent certain that all that crap he writes about me is his cover up to justify the fact that he took everything from me and have been actively trying to destroy my career and my online presence. Here he is again with another post trying to hurt me. He didn’t take the most important part of me though–my faith, love, and will power.
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I’m a long time follower on BodyRock, now follow ZWOW, I never like that Fred, his face sick me from the beginning in 2008.
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You are so cool! Congratulations on your success!
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WOW. I can’t believe this story. I am so sorry to hear you had to go through that. It really seemed like you guys did have a genuine connection and I did wonder what the hell happened when you suddenly disappeared cause I had always thought BodyRock was only you. I have been watching you for some years now, and you are the ONLY woman I have ever seen who is as hot as you are and so fit (I am a GUY and have tried your workouts before too, and they are awesome!) AND maintaining a perfectly feminine figure (and face). I love how you would time your cardio stuff too to make them genuine for your viewers, and something to compete against.
You deserve so much and I hope you get the viewers/publicity that you are trying to get. I must admit it really seemed slutty the way the BodyRock was done, but I figured sex sells and so it was an excellent business model. I also thought so what I enjoy your hotness (hehe) and you are crazy fit! But now it is even more impressive that you desire to have a more family oriented direction. So good job.
Finding this I will try to put more of an effort giving you views and support as a long time fan. You’re awesome, keep it up. If you ever change your mind about going to Canada, well you got a fan right here. And I’m pretty sure I can’t be the only one.
Good luck!
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Zuzana,
My sister and I have been looking for you for years. We left bodyrock.tv when you did. Everything became fake and disgusting and we couldn’t handle the insecure Lisa Marie and Freddy. It was completely obvious that the butt and boob shots were driven by him as you were personable and real and lovely.
She emailed me today and said she finally found you and I am overjoyed to the moon and back that you are doing well and still making videos!!
Much love!!
Kellie
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Hi Kellie,
It’s really sad what happened and that I lost the connection with all of you guys. I wish I had at least a chance to let everyone know where I was… I’m really glad you found me and that we can workout together just like in the old times 🙂
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I always knew he was a piece of shit. I used to get the douche chills every time he spoke or was on camera. Good riddance.
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I have followed you since the time you were working out with weights in your basement on youtube to date. I have read that rude and nasty message from Freddy. The only thing that crossed my mind was, give me a break. Proof number 1 look at the up keep of the sexuality of Bodyrock now. Look at the image they still portray.
Your decision was the best one and I am glad you kept it strong! Proud of you. Keep following your dream and success!
Cheers.
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Sorry to hear about your divorce in 2012. That was about the same time I watched my parents finish up the legal side of their divorce (they started in 2010). It is rough for anyone, although judging by the way you have written this blog I think you have handled it better than either of my parents. Your blog was matter of fact and not dripping with verbal bitterness or misgivings, and you were wise not to sign the “no compete” paper. So now it is January 2014 and I hope your divorce has not dragged on this long because I need some help navigating your website ZuzkaLight.com. I just bought ZCut Power Strength series, ZCut Kettle bells series, ZCut yoga series and the Zcut jump rope on Amazon.com. I would love to start the kettle bell or power strength series but none of the series I bought came with any workout calendar. So I don’t know if I should just start with exercise #1 in a series and keep going by the numbers or if their is any particular order they should be done in. So in short, I want to begin but where do I begin? Is there anywhere on ZuzkaLight.com that I could download the workout calendars that go with the series I bought? I emailed amazon.com but they directed me to WatchItNowEntertainment.com and they didn’t really help. Sorry this got long winded, but from the looks of this website your doing a good job.
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Hi Beck,
It was a long ride, but it’s all done at least on a personal level. Now about the dvds:
The kettlebell series you can find in the ZGym and follow my weekly workout schedule that offers cardio workouts, bodyweight workouts, jump rope workouts etc. plus you get to be part of a great community. Watch it now is responsible for the DVDs, I was apparently just hired to be in those videos doing my workouts. I remember that there should be a calendar only with the zcut cardio, however it doesn’t really matter what sequence of order you do those workouts, because they’re all full body workouts and all at a high intensity.
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Wow! I finally found you again!! I had no clue why you disappeared from BodyRock as I thought YOU were the one and only! I’ve just in the last 2 days started doing the videos again but it was YOU that was the inspiration I needed! Thank you for sharing such personal information with us and I wish you nothing but happiness and continued success in the future!
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Love you, Zuzka! <3 <3 <3 Stay strong. We'll continue to support you.
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Zuzka, you are an inspiration to health and fitness world. I will continue to pass your name to friends, family, or others that follow this same goal. As a huge fan of your amazing physique and dedication, I wish you the best for the future. I followed BR for YOU only. Thank you for being true to fitness and health and fans like me.